Just Let Go

Hello there. I've got a few feelings worth sharing lately but I'm also quite tired. I'll just go into one of them this time. Recently I was listening to my iPod on shuffle and a song came up that I felt really pertains to one of my current situations. The song is called "Just Let Go" and it's by the band Mae. Something interesting about the fact that this song is describing my situation now is that I believe it did the same around the start of my college career. I remember there was a period where I listened to it for a while, which is usually because I can relate to the words spoken in it. So it is as if I have come full circle here in college. Situations have changed and I would say many can see that I have as well. But somehow I have come back to this song, or rather it has returned to lay in the lap of my ears once again. This time listening to it, I hear it as a duet. The duet allows it to make more sense for me now. So I am going to put the lyrics here in the way that I hear it. B (for boy) will be me, G (for girl) will be her, and T (for together) will both of us.

B: We've got all night just to make it alright. Would you take a walk with me? I'll give you all I've got just spare me your time and I promise you won't want to leave.

G: Are you, are you falling for me?

B: (thinking to himself) This time we'll find what we both need.

B: There's an old oak tree, we can swing and sway, we'll lock arms and legs. You're so far away. When I look at you, you're so far away, I'm so far away.

G: Oh if you could just let go.

B: Wet your eyes with me just for a while. I'll take you out of harm's way. And like these branches that shelter the rain we can lay here in our own shade.

G: Are you, are you falling for me?

B: Just watch, the two of us will see. There's an old oak tree, we can swing and sway, we'll lock arms and legs. You're so far away. When I look at you, you're so far away. I'm so far away. There is so much that I could give to you, just say you want me to. I know these roots could break the ground. And in the meantime our leaves will turn. But rest assured, we'll get through anything.

T: Are you, are you falling for me?

B: Like I, oh I'm falling for you. There's an old oak tree, we can swing and sway, we'll lock arms and legs. You're so far away. It's just you and me. We can get away. We can get away.

G: You're so far away.

B: (thinking to himself) In this lover's play we are happy here, oh in every way. Oh, and then we just let go.

G: Just let go.

B: (to himself) Just let go.

T: Just let go.

So I envision this song as a conversation between myself and someone that I sort of have feelings for, knowing she doesn't share them. Not only does she not share those same feelings, but I've fallen for her twice before, only to realize she was just being herself. She wasn't trying to make me fall for her. So it's as though I'm falling for her and partially trying not to. I'm trying to tell myself to just let go but for some reason my heart keeps beating on in a direction pointed toward her. So perhaps that explains (to a certain extent) why this song applies to my current situation.

Anyway, that's one of my feelings lately. Maybe one day soon I'll post some of the others. What do you think?