Right where I am is where God has placed me. Where He wants me. He may not desire for me to stay permanently in this spot but I have a purpose in the here and now. Sitting around doing nothing about it is exactly what I should not be doing. With His strength I make it through each day. He brings me immeasurable joy that is beyond understanding. I think right now what I'm learning is that I need to learn to love myself for the way that I am. Is that right? That's something difficult. I don't want to be boastful or conceited. But is it true that I must learn to love myself before I can be loved by someone else on this earth? What a concept!
Sometimes waiting is just so hard. I know that God is preparing she and I for each other. I pray that He is growing us closer to Himself and to each other. Every day is a chance to learn something new. God has taught me some new things lately, or really just opened my eyes to some things that He sees. I have sung "break my heart for what breaks Yours" while worshipping and he did just that this weekend. On Saturday, Halloween, I went to a boliche (club) and really just saw how broken this world that we're living in is. We all just want to be loved, to be appreciated, to be known. Too many times we look to the temporary things of this world to satisfy our eternal desires. Why do we do that? We want immediate gratification. What we really want is something that lasts and although those things don't last we will risk too much for them. Why? These fleeting joys are nothing in comparison to what can be found in Christ! We must look to Him for a life with meaning, joy and truth. What else will last anywhere near as long?