Would you rather be complacent or compliant? Would you rather someone speak for you in moments of silence or be lost in the shadows?
There is darkness in this world but we're not made of shadowy figures. No one is all absence and we cannot be completely present. I don't know everything and neither do you. I'm trying to practice compassion but when I hear you saying it's one way or the other my ears become clouded. I'm trying to practice grace and mercy, but I don't hear it in your tone.
I'm trying to practice unification though I know He said He said he came as a servant's sword. Family values is not the gospel that I follow. Though I may often travel the way of least resistance, I am not seeking to walk down padded hallways during my stay on this planet. I just haven't figured out how to be vocal without being a condemning voice. I am trying to be the incarnation of the Incarnate Word and it's not an easy task. I am seeking to be hands and feet but I recognize my heart is flawed.
You may say we make mistakes but I know the truth. I do more than make mistakes, sometimes I'm just downright hurtful. The pain I've caused isn't always inadvertent; sometimes I'm transferring the bloodstained message of death. Sometimes I'm ugly there is no excuse but sin and selfishness. To say that I've made mistakes is a vast understatement. In the moment sin doesn't feel like a misstep or a stubbed toe. Rather, it is a moment of temporal self-gratification that I must recognize as the ugliness within me. It is not something imposed from the outside, nor is it something that I can wash clean myself.
Granted, I do make mistakes, but to say all of my sin is just like stumbling over rocks while walking a freshly paved highway is to detract personal responsibility. Sometimes my sin deceives me and I think I'm doing okay. Sometimes I've convinced myself (and perhaps others) that what I do is less concerning than the (in)action of others and that is false. Sin is sin and it is self seeking at it's most basic form. I do not wish to avoid personal responsibility and so subtly damn myself and others in the process. Instead, I would rather take full responsibility for my actions and turn toward a Savior that says He is more than I ever can imagine to be.