It's difficult to accept that you may be a wolf when you look back and remember the lush green pastures of your youth. When you've tasted the cool stream of water, how can you stand to sit under the burning sun? When you're raised as a sheep, it takes concerted determination to begin to wander into the fold. You find yourself feeling like a prodigal son that has chained his right leg to a post while your left leg futilely tries to force freedom. You find your mind wandering while your and try to catch your heart before it gets carried into a the forbidden forest like a balloon afraid to pop, though simultaneously reaching for the maze of branches.
Reaching higher but only holding onto my previous notions. The daylight is a waking sign. Cold water and no electricity reminds me of taking this life for granted. Luxuries like a warm blanket on a brisk night. Not knowing who I am but redefining everything and still nothing. Embracing all but still feeling unaccepted or as one who doesn't accept.
The colors aren't just black and white. It's not just neon and pastels. There is vibrancy in a dusty woodshed and superficiality in the glow of the sign that reads "Now Open". I'll see you on the other side of this and I'm today's a day I'm climbing. No, perhaps climbing is not the right way to describe it. Perhaps I've reached the surface in some aspects and have come up for air and to feel the buoyancy of my body anew.