Not exactly sketch

So this is the type of drawing that I used to do when I was bored.  I would just draw all around the page and just draw whatever came to me.  Sometimes I had ideas, other times the pen seemed to have its own ideas.  So I was a little bored today and so I drew this.  I call it Sometimes the words I heard.  I made funkie dough cookies tonight with Glenn and Becky.  They're cookies with funfetti, chocolate chip cookie dough, an egg, and oil.  Yum!  I also saw Slumdog Millionaire with them tonight.  That was good.  Just thought I'd share with you.  Hope you're having a great weekend!

¡Cuidase!

P.S. There's some interesting stuff in there..like my first name in pieces as well as a message that I had an idea about for a card to a girl that I've liked but it doesn't look like I'll get to use it..so it's on there!  In order to see it in this image it would have to be reflected and a person would have to look really close though.

Wonderings of which love story I'm in and who will save the Night?

Life can be a roller coaster sometimes...

I feel I could possibly be in so many love stories.  Which one is mine though?  Which of these stories is the true one that will lead to ultimate happiness?  There!  Right there!  That's my problem.  I think that a relationship is going to make me happy.  That is NOT true.  The only relationship I need is the one with my Father in Heaven.  He is the One who sustains me. The One who gives me energy to make it through everyday. The One who gives me so much more than a second chance.  But yet I find myself pursuing a relationship with a girl soooo much.  And it's not even always the same girl.  I can start liking someone pretty easily and that can be a problem.  But then I also think so far in advance, which can also be a problem.  I think about things that would be so far in the future when I barely even know someone.

I do think that Lent was good for me trying to not pursue a relationship though.  I think I did it some.  Toward the end it was getting tough.  But I think it made me realize that sometimes good friends come in different forms.  I can grow closer with some people a lot faster than with others.  I think it's great.  But it doesn't always have to be something like a relationship.  In this respect I'm talking about the boyfriend-girlfriend-type relationship.  Sometimes being friends is the best thing.  If God causes other feelings to develop, then so be it.

Something that's been sort of difficult lately is wanting that relationship but at the same time knowing that I'm going to be gone for about half a year.  I'm not going to see a lot of these people at school for a long time, and some of them are studying abroad in the Spring so I won't see them for even longer.

It's always hard wanting a relationship and trying to have patience and wait on God's timing.  But it's especially hard when you like someone that you probably won't see for another year.  I don't want to ruin our friendship because I really value it, as does she actually.  But at the same time I feel like maybe we could be something more.  I guess this year will give us both time to think. Time to think about what we are to each other. Maybe time to find the one for us.  I know the last time I gave her time to think I regretted not telling her how I feel but now I have told her.  Now I just want to know where I go from this stage.

This part of the roller coaster was the big hill.  Yesterday I told her and basically put my heart on the table.  Today, after processing my heart and her feelings, she slipped my heart back under the door.  But it wasn't something she did out of hate.  I completely respect her for doing what she did.  The decline of this hill could have been much steeper if I had gone on thinking something was there that wasn't really.  I appreciate her for not leading me down a dead end road.

So yesterday I was in a developing love story.  As of today at about 5 o'clock I'm not too sure.  Is this just another chapter?

Something random I thought about during worship at CRU tonight was:

So Superman saves the day, but who saves the night?

Is that why the night is such a time of darkness?

Thankfully, I have a Savior who saves no matter how bright!

Sometimes life is dull and there is no light,

But I know my Savior still does have the might.

Where are you in life?

¡Cuidase!

Acceptances, Dismissals, and Amazing Grace

Wow! What a day!! Who knew how amazing today would turn out when I woke up this morning! Well, God did of course! :) So today I got accepted into the Art Department! I'm very excited! :) Also, I found out today that my case got dismissed. My brother told me that he has officially purchased our tickets for a 311 concert this Summer too. I mean seriously, could this day have been any better?

Then, tonight we had CRU at the Dragonfly Theater & Pub. It's a place that isn't really on campus but is technically a part of campus. Basically, it's a movie theater with nice chairs and tables in front of your seats to eat at. They also serve you there. Quite nice! We watched the movie Amazing Grace, which I had seen before but was still very good. I've fallen asleep during it both times, but that doesn't say much 'cause I fall asleep during movies a lot.

We had some great discussion time afterward. This movie really shows a great example of determination. Something that struck me while we were there and that I wanted to mention on here was how we can all have an impact no matter how insignificant we think we are. People think, "Oh, I'm just one man, woman, boy, or girl and I can't make any difference." But the world is full of billions of people who are just one on their own. Together we can all make a difference. All we need is a little determination. Another thing that some of us got to talking about was how we try to pursue something and then see something else worth going after and go for that. We should be people who finish what we've started. This requires that we focus on one thing, even when we feel like giving up. It is important to focus on our "one thing" as Eric Heistand (one of the guys on CRU staff) puts it. If you don't know what your one thing is, pray about it. A world full of insignificants can't change a thing, perhaps that's why it is why we spell it I-N-S-I-G-N-I-F-I-C-A-N-T.

I think that my one thing has something to do with Latin America and relationships. I really like pursuing relationships with people. I want to use Spanish in a way that shows people that Christianity is more than tradition and religious rituals, it's about a relationship with our Savior and our God. Along with that crucial relationship we can develop true relationships with our peers that reflect the feelings of God. Spending time with fellow believers is what we call fellowship. Spending time to just love others is what we call developing a true relationship. I believe that our relationships with God, fellow believers, and even nonbelievers are all very important in this life. This is what I want to live my life for. This is how I want to glorify God. It may not be that God has planned for me to live in Latin America for a large period of my life as I wish right now. But I want to show the people of this world that we were made to be relational people. That's why we feel so good when we're around our friends or our family and why sometimes we feel so lonely when we can't feel the ones we love. I hope that you understand this. I feel very inspired right now, like God just spoke those words right through my hands. :) How great is our God!

¡Cuidase!

Art Journaling and the Beginning of Jeremiah

Hey everyone!  Today I bought a book called What It Is by Lynda Barry.  It reminds me that I really think that this is my favorite medium.  I want to do more Art Journaling.  It combines two things that I really enjoy: writing and collage.  So hopefully in the future I'll be making more art like this, perhaps in addition to Graphic Design.  I could maybe fuse these two ideas together.  I just wanted to share that tonight and I also want to start sharing about what I'm reading every morning in the Word.  Today I started the Book of Jeremiah and the Lord spoke to me, through the last few verses especially.  "Today I have made you a fortified city, an iron pillar and a bronze wall to stand against the whole land-against the kings of Judah, its officials, its priests and the people of the land.  They will fight against you but will not overcome you, for I am with you and will rescue you,' declares the Lord." (Jeremiah 1:18-19) God has given me the strength and the power to make it through whatever comes at me.  He doesn't want me to just sit back and watch my life go by.  He has great plans for me and using my life.  He wants to use me for His Glory.  How privileged I am that the God of the universe would choose me to bring Him Glory?  Amazing! :) :) :)

You should check out this song that we sang while worshipping at CRU tonight!  It's great and when we're in there singing this it really gets me excited and I feel the joy of worship.  Just look up Hosanna by Hillsong on YouTube.  Hope y'all are having a great Monday Thursday!  Tomorrow, after class, it's back home for Easter Break for me! :)

¡Cuidase!

Photographic Living

So as I was walking from my Art History class toward my next class I was inspired to write a poem. I'm a little tired and my plan was to just go relax on the couch outside of my next class until it starts. But I went to Crossroads (a coffee shop in the Student Union) and wrote this instead:

Living in a photograph.

I'm living in a photograph.
Sometimes I see the scene.
It lightens where I've been.
I'm living in a photograph.
And this is my life.
Sometimes the Photographer
Let's me see what He's taking.
Sometimes I see this world,
Only some of what He's making.
Look to the lake. See your reflection.
On a day where the snow is melting
And nothing seems appealing
He still finds a way
Of somehow revealing
That
I'm living in a photograph
And this picture is moving.

So that's it..for now. Just thought I'd share it with you! Have a great Wednesday!
¡Cuidase!

A Diverse Post: Fridays, Motorcycles, and Societies

Usually I have one or no classes on Fridays.  This semester has been quite different.  Friday is my busiest day of the week this semester.  Here's how it usually goes down: I wake up at 6 in the morning after getting around 4 or so hours of sleep.  After doing my morning routine I walk over to Welborn (aka the new caf or Newborn) for work.  I have work from 7 until 10.  Then I go and eat a second breakfast consisting of a Supreme Breakfast Burrito on a spinach wrap.  Delicious!  I get that every Friday.  It has eggs, bacon, sausage, cheese, salsa, sour cream, and a hash brown.  Then I find a way to buy some time while I wait for my Intensive Grammar Review (Spanish) class to start.  Usually it just involves sitting on the couch outside of the room and relaxing, almost to the point of sleeping.  Then I have that class from 11 until 11:50.  After that I have a break from 12 until 1.  During this time I try and relax some more because I am quite worn out already.  So I set my alarm for 12:50 or so.  Then I have my Mixed Media with the Figure (Clay) class.  That class goes from 1 until roughly 4:40.  It's so long because the class only meets once a week.  Sometimes I don't stay until the end though because I can only work so much; plus I am still very tired.

And then I reach this part of the day.  What I do varies from week to week but I usually try to actually get some true relaxation in.  I may take a nap in a little while.  Tonight I am meeting up with a couple people (Jade and Kelly) that I went to the Dominican Republic with to Watch The Motorcycle Diaries.  It's a pretty good movie, I watched it for the first time last semester with my roommate, Nico.

Also, I got an email from Gamma Beta Phi about being nominated for it again this year sometime in the last two weeks.  The email said they would send me something in my ASU Box but they have yet to do so.  Therefore, I've got to remember to call them on Monday and see what the deal is there.  I did get some mail today from Rocky Mountain College of Art & Design (RMCAD) that I sent in for.  I looked at the information that they gave me and it looks like it could be a great school to get my BFA in Graphic Design sometime after Appalachian.  I'll probably look at other schools too but I've got plenty of time for that.  I don't really know when I plan on going back to school but I feel like it would be best if it was sooner rather than later.  If I wait too long I may lose interest or not have the time.  It's not that I would really lose interest, but I would just be focusing on so many other things.

I'm also working on a collage for a Diversity Celebration next Tuesday on at the Student Union.  I glued the faces together last night after getting the pictures developed yesterday morning.  I think I'm going to add some natural colors to the background, like skin tones.  Also, I may add some quotes about diversity and/or race along with the title (Forward We Run, Until the Race is Won) in there.  There's a picture of it at the beginning of this post, in case you missed it. ;) Let me know what Diversity and Race mean to you and/or some good quotes I could possibly put on it.  I would really appreciate your help.  Thank you!

¡Cuidase!